Thursday, May 6, 2010

By chance, I came upon this blog this morning. I just spent the last hour and a half reading about sweet Kenzie. She had a disease called SMARD, which I had never heard of before now. She passed away just shy of 5 months. I sat and read, and cried, and read, and SOBBED. I feel so much pain for this family. Strangers.

I tried to compose myself, and went in to wake up Kapri. I wanted to hold her, squeeze her, and kiss her cheeks. WOW. I was overwhelmed. She smiled up at me, and immediately stood up to be held. I cried some more. As if she knew something was wrong, she laid her head on my shoulder and snuggled into me. I cannot express how much I love this little girl. Her and Cody are my EVERYTHING. I refuse to imagine my life without either of them, and pray that I will never have to face that kind of pain. I don't think I'd be strong enough to endure it.

I think I need these kind of reminders. Stop worrying about the small stuff. It doesn't matter that my house is a wreck, or that my crazy old dog feels the need to relieve himself on my stairs. (Sorry, I need a little comic relief. And YES, this really happened.) In the end none of it matters.

THIS.. is what matters.

2 comments:

  1. Oh Tawnya you are SO right. Why is it so easy to forget about what really matters? My heart aches for families who lose children. So tragic. Every day is a gift, thanks for reminding me.

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  2. Oh my GOD! That is the saddest thing i have ever seen! It makes me want to cry! I am at work and i should not have read this at work. So sad....

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