Thursday, May 6, 2010

By chance, I came upon this blog this morning. I just spent the last hour and a half reading about sweet Kenzie. She had a disease called SMARD, which I had never heard of before now. She passed away just shy of 5 months. I sat and read, and cried, and read, and SOBBED. I feel so much pain for this family. Strangers.

I tried to compose myself, and went in to wake up Kapri. I wanted to hold her, squeeze her, and kiss her cheeks. WOW. I was overwhelmed. She smiled up at me, and immediately stood up to be held. I cried some more. As if she knew something was wrong, she laid her head on my shoulder and snuggled into me. I cannot express how much I love this little girl. Her and Cody are my EVERYTHING. I refuse to imagine my life without either of them, and pray that I will never have to face that kind of pain. I don't think I'd be strong enough to endure it.

I think I need these kind of reminders. Stop worrying about the small stuff. It doesn't matter that my house is a wreck, or that my crazy old dog feels the need to relieve himself on my stairs. (Sorry, I need a little comic relief. And YES, this really happened.) In the end none of it matters.

THIS.. is what matters.


  1. Oh Tawnya you are SO right. Why is it so easy to forget about what really matters? My heart aches for families who lose children. So tragic. Every day is a gift, thanks for reminding me.

  2. Oh my GOD! That is the saddest thing i have ever seen! It makes me want to cry! I am at work and i should not have read this at work. So sad....